I've known Ade Wolfson for about 16 years now. In that time, he has been a
good friend, a good colleague and a source of endless humour. Last week, he
died. The facts of his death are a matter of public record: he killed himself,
shortly after being charged with committing a sex act in front of a child. As
I think about these facts again, that I have turned over in my mind many
times, they still seem as strange and bizarre as the first time.
I met Ade while at University (or just shortly after). We worked together for
a small charity, looking after children, providing them with a holiday, when
they were unlikely to get another. Neither of us did this work out a sense of
do-gooderism. For myself, I never really liked children that much, but I
enjoyed the domesticity of running a holiday, as well as the sense of
commonality of a bunch of young adults, struggling well outside of their
experience to provide these holidays. Ade was much the same, except for the
bit about not liking the children. He was a natural: he could settle the
homesick, enthuse the recalcitrant, calm a pyscho-nutter. His story-telling
was legendary within a year. It was no surprise when he became a
school-teacher; anything else would have been a crime against his talents.
As we moved further away from University, we kept in touch, initially through
the charity, and later for ourselves. We spoke infrequently but regularly. We
both started to display a touch of Homer Simpsonness in our appearance, but
other than that we had little in common. Being a school-teacher provided Ade
with a gold-lined rut; he loved what he was doing, but worried that it would
speed him toward middle age in his twenties. For myself, the insecurity and
lack of responsibility of a contract research scientist threatened to keep me
as an eighteen year old in my thirties. We spoke about this at times; other
favorite topics were the state of his plumbing and Harry Potter; Ade had
introduced me to Harry around book 3, while I was living in London. Over the
next few years, we completed a post-modern analysis of the plot ahead of
publication — for the record, he guessed about Dumbledore, while I got
Sirius.
We saw each other rarely. I think the last time was nearly 5 years ago. He
lived in south London; I consider the capital to be less habitable than Mars.
We tried to hook up a few other times, but it didn't happen. I am left with a
memory of him, a kind, wonderful man, with a great laugh and an overgrown
beard which he had, in reality, long shaved-off.
His death is a tragedy and distressing to many of us who knew him. That such a
straight-forward man should die in such melodrama is unfitting to say the
least. That he chose not to defend himself, as I am sure that he could, that
he could not find the support from all those who loved him, is painful to us
all. But since I heard of his death on Saturday, I have also thought much of
the time in his presence, of the stories we were part of, and the friends that
we were. I've enjoyed re-living these memories more than I can say.
Adrian Wolfson, RIP.